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Hi there, Haven't updated my journal in a while, I hope everyone is alright and live a happy life.

    Let's me get straight to the point. sorry If my remaining ego have driven me to type something stupid, But at least I'm being honest to you, I also wanted to practice writing long essay in English too.

I'm always open for your critique and suggestion, But please write it in a respectful manner.

    My own feeling about using anime in my art, you might notice that I always use shape and form of anime in most of my artworks, But my inner side always tells me that I don't have that much interest in it, I like to go to art museum instead of anime convention, I like to watch cartoon more than watching anime, I like to read aesthetic/philosophy and other books more than manga or doujin, [forget about video games, I've decided to quit it, cold freaking turkey] my only activity related to game is listening to games music/bgm.

But nevertheless, The main form/shape and object in my artworks are always related to anime. because I still like using it the most. compared to cartoon/realistic/ or other art styles. 

    I don't know, maybe my main purpose about using anime is just for fine art, while many skilled people might think about using it for other purpose [Yet I still need to use it to earn money to keep my stomach full and healthy, so I can produce good works, But I always believe that my main purpose is still for brightening the world, cheering up sad people, not mainly for other purpose at this moment.] this might be why some people who tend to dislike anime so much still have minor interest in some of my anime art.

    I always read and study about art to improve my aesthetic skills and the way I view art and the world around me, my inner side have spoken that craftsmanship skills is not my main priority, My anime works might looks out of proportion in the eyes of beginner and professional, but I always believe to follow my feeling instead of following the rule that makes everything look correct and perfect, Which will lead to depression and make my art look like it has no mystic. 

   I tended to be a competitive people before and I've competed with myself all the time, But in the end I've realized that competition in art will only lead to depression and ruin my artwork, so I've stopped competing with anyone, even with myself, me and the other me have decided to cooperate with each other instead of competing, I've stopped comparing my new work with my old works, we have helped each other and then created this picture together.

Pinkie Pie and Donut Joe by emperpep

   [A work of friendship maybe, lol I dont know, I didn't watch MLP that much, my favorite type of cartoon is Superjail]
   If you see it using your aesthetic feeling, you might see a lot of happiness, which expresses freedom and joyfulness, I cannot express this at all if I were still feel competitive.

    I believe that art is like a mirror that reflect your own self, Showing your feeling and story which is going on in your head, even if you try to lie or distort it, Your art will speak for itself, And it will always speak the truth.
 I want to hear some opinions from other people mainly in anime art and the way you think about art maybe, because I feel like I haven't communicate with people that much.



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Himamitsu Featured By Owner 2 days ago   Digital Artist
I feel the same way
And omg we both like Superjail, that's so awesome. :D
rabbitwar Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014
I'd choose feeling over technical correctness any day. 
It's refreshing that you choose to be true to yourself and honest with your art.
Please keep following your bliss!<3
fajar-rizky Featured By Owner Edited Jul 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
i love your anime styled - art

and it kinda surprised me because you said you attend fine art museum more that anime- con... 

and i'm looking forward new stuff in your NSFW tumblr hehehe... Dignity Laugh 
cuddlesaurus21 Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I totally understand about this! I always enjoy seeing the anime style, but in truth the only anime show I've ever watched is Pokemon. Just because you don't watch or enjoy much anime doesn't mean you can't like--or use!--the art style itself. There's nothing at all wrong with that!

I haven't really gotten to know you personally, by the way, but I just wanted to say that your art is very beautiful and I've watched it for a while now, and it inspires me a lot! :nod: Keep up the good work and don't worry about what people say. Please yourself with your work, and you will end up pleasing many others too without having to worry about it! :hug:
M-A-F Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2014
I'm confused and I don't really know what to think when doing digital work. I don't feel connected to art or my drawings.
I rarely watch or read anime or manga either, don't know why. 

Most of the compliments I usually get lately is about my colouring, whilst my main thoughts of making ideal art is about context and aesthetics. The kind that don't make it beyond my scrap sketchbook~

I imagine the people who don't like anime but like your art are impressed by the creativity of your artwork because you don't just draw a character, you draw a whole creative and imaginative world in a single picture.

rsiphotography Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014  Professional General Artist
Yes dear well fall prey to it. We do things for appearances and for the praise of people without seeking the praise that comes from God our heavenly Father. Life is complete when we seek His praise alone and enjoy most of all that still small voice that says :I love it great job and most of all I love you."

So the world has become this huge competitive field and what you heart is asking what really matters? 100 years from now will even of a scrap of my life be remembered? We hope yes and in our heart of hearts we want to leave a legacy but the path that darkness pushes people down does not bring fulfillment because it is not based in love. It is a leaven of pride that cares mostly about appearances and cares nothing about love. Its a dead end. You can discover this at a young age or wait until you are old and feeble but the truth is we must find greatest joy in the presence and the praise of God. Indeed He praises his children and nothing compares to it.  David Berkowitz's (former Son of Sam)Other trasnslations here

My name is David Berkowitz, and I am a prison inmate who has been incarcerated for more than thirty-six years. I have been sentenced to prison for the rest of my life. My criminal case is well known and was called the Son of Sam shootings.
It was twenty-four years ago, when I was living in a cold and lonely prison cell, that God got a hold of my life. Here is my story of Hope...


Ever since I was a small child, my life seemed to be filled with torment. I would often have seizures in which I would roll on the floor. Sometimes furniture would get knocked over. When these attacks came, it felt as if something was entering me.
My mother, who has long since passed away, had not control over me. I was like a wild and destructive animal. My father had to pin me to the floor until these

The journal above explains more what I want to say its the testimony of a very dear friend. However what David is found is true I also find true in my life.
NightyNite Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Hobbyist
Anime is just another form of art. It's a style, and you don't have to like watching anime in order to like that art style. Follow your heart and do whatever makes you happy and not worry over minor details.

I agree with art being like a mirror that reflects you.

However, I don't agree that following the "rules" will lead to depression, or your art loosing mystique. Art has no rules. It has fundamentals, which are more like guidelines.
What you said just sounds like stupid excuses some artist make. Your art is good right now? So you're going to stop learning?? NEVER STOP WANTING TO LEARN/TO IMPROVE/TO GROW.
An artist should always crave knowledge in their craft if they truly love it. Don't cease to compete with yourself completely. Do not be afraid of failure in the process.

Only foolish artists make the excuse of "Oh I choose not to learn or follow rules because it doesn't let me express how I want it to be, better to rely ONLY on my gut feelings." BULLSHEIT I SAY.

Why do some people separate the idea of FUNDAMENTALS and FOLLOWING ONE'S FEELINGS apart from each other. They can both coexist. I guarantee you, that in learning the fundamentals of art, your art will still be lovely to YOU and to many. Why? Because even after learning the fundamentals you will still draw with your feelings, right? You will still implement the elements you love, and express it the way you want, all while understanding a little more about how lighting works, anatomy, perspective, etc. Remember: there's no rule. Learning fundamentals doesn't encage you to a particular style or enforce you to have to use what you learned at all. None the less, you should still learn how the eye sees reality in conjunction with art, and from there can we distort reality.  

You don't have to if you don't want to. Everyone has different levels of passion for art and priorities. Just don't blame it on the false notion that applying fundamentals leads to depression and not being able to express oneself. Just say you want it like this, cause you want it like this. That's it. 

XocoWilde Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014   Digital Artist
I just met you and I totally agree with you. Doesn't matter the style, just folow what your feelings says ;)
prototypic Featured By Owner May 31, 2014  Hobbyist
hm I don't know if you're still reading these since this post is from awhile back... but I think art speaks differently to different people, no matter what style. ^  ^ 
For me, I switched from more anime-like art to a more realistic style, but like you, I never really had a big interest in watching or reading anime/manga: I'd rather play video games or read literature xD 
A shift in my attitude about life and being honest with myself and what I like to draw lead to a gradual change in my style. 
In a way, drawing has now become my solace. It used to be something that I would constantly alter to fit the prevalent trend, but now it's something I do to relieve stress.
HearseGurl Featured By Owner May 31, 2014
I love how you like to study and read and go to museums over other things. I'm the same way. I could spend All day in a library! :)
Zanreo Featured By Owner May 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I see "anime" as just a different kind of cartoony/stylization art style, when you look at various anime series, "anime style" can be a lot of things.
My style can be called slighty anime-inspired, but I don't really watch a lot of it (or any series in general really) aside from a few certain series I like.
Nothing wrong with drawing an anime-inspired style and not watching anime a lot, it's just the way you draw and what you like drawing/are good at drawing. That being said, if you want to try something else that's also good, variation and experimenting with other styles is always good.
Paixi Featured By Owner May 16, 2014  Student
I think art is useless but makes living worthwhile through beauty, like friendship, love, and charity. Great art consoles us from the evil of our fleshy pleasures rather than entice us to be more carnal. It's a spiritual feeling beyond human reasoning that gives us insight into the world we live in and hope that this is not all there is, as well as humble us to how little we can actually attain in life.
Hatty-hime Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is exactly how I feel.
I draw without watching anime or reading manga, sometimes I think that ruins my style because I do not follow the "rules"
But I am happy when I draw, it makes me happy anyway!
I Love You! [Animated] by HatakeSage  
Brujitaloveskurama Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2014  Student General Artist
(i don't know english neither, but i'll try to explain)

"Art" is a word with many uses and meanings and it could be a lot of things, we have a standardized image of it. A illustration with anime style, or an anime, or manga, or story, can become in Art.  Usually i don't use the term "Art" i use "Illustration" "Draws" "Sons" xd

Im studiying Graphic Design, and i remember in the 1st semester, a teacher told us: "No all the designs are Art, but one can become in it"

I love to draw anime/manga style. But somethings, i tend to draw abstract... i can combine them too, according with my feelings. I like what did you say: "...But I always believe that my main purpose is still for brightening the world, cheering up sad people, not mainly for other purpose at this moment" c:

I think, people have so many feelings... everything is not happiness all the time. Is good you want to do it for others, but it must to be for you too.

(really short this xD sorry.)
pho3nixdown Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Hi!  I've been lurking your DA lately hoping to find out information about commissions but this post is concerning.

Isn't anime/manga just cartoonized, distored reality?  I am not trying to pretend for a minute I know all my art types- I just know the kinds of art styles I prefer and have in my place (impressionism currently on the walls done in oils by contemporary impressionist #1 fav type) , and yes I would go to the Phila Museum of art in times past to check out my arts I'm from the area).  Arists are allowed to like what they like and draw what they want.  popularity of styles come and go and I think often times people revist old works and go "wow!  that was an awesome idea those idiots back then just didn't get it" which is what I think artists have to suffer with a lot. 

I disagree with Mikkie15 though.  If you know how to draw, you know how to draw.  How it translates into different styles is different though.  The same basic art rules apply to anime/manga.  Not that I can demonstrate it well with my gallery because I never finished art school, but I was taught to draw using traditional media like most schoolkids of my generation- so the digital era came well after I got used to using ink, pencils and paper to convey ideas.  I think my worry (probably many people worry) is that the younger generations will stumble across stylized cartoons, digital media and think it is the end all of artwork and other traditional/ digital methods are crap/less than the stylized cartoons of anime & manga.
Mikkie15 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student General Artist
Anime/Manga art is for people who struggle to draw realism art, but I draw both, instead of looking at a realistic subject and seeing and drawing the real thing to how it looks I draw it differently from what I see in front of me and the cartoon/anime version and I have with it I guess. showing a person what they look like in the cartoon/anime world they still love it because they know it's still them in the drawing/painting but that's my opinion.^^
Mikkie15 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Student General Artist
I still have the old MLP movie and episodes, WOW, that stuff goes way back XD
iAmSprFstJellyfish Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I understand your feelings, though instead of not being interested in anime I was always told it was the wrong thing for me to be trying to draw.
I prefer art over anime, completely. I love going to art museums, I love the way art brings out emotions other things cant, but I love going to anime conventions almost more because it makes me happier and smile more.
There is something about the colours and "cute-ness" of anime that makes you smile (most of the time) and your style genuinely brings that out. I personally adore your traditional art, as art and less as anime. The way you use colours and the combinations of mediums (pencils, watercolour, marker, etc) is absolutely fantastic and I would absolutely love to see you maybe mix that style you use for drawing anime with maybe something else? Like landscapes or realism or architecture or something. I feel your style would be fantastic no matter what you tried :D   (but we all adore your anime, so please dont stop :love:)
xXMintyFatelyXx Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you really inspire me. I got inspired to draw anime when I first started watching it, it was really fun, but then I kept getting busy with school, so I have barely any time to watch anime anymore T^T 
LlamaLeiMei Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
All my art teachers hate anime/manga art so when I choose it as my style in some of my college projects, I just know everytime what they are thinking when it comes to a one on one talk. I hate the way they reject it and can't see the beauty in it (manga style) and it makes me feel disheartened as it is something I am passionate about.

So my advice to you I guess is to keep drawing in whatever style you want and love and to forget about the people who may disagree with it. I also like the way you think, the way you are always wanting to improve your technical drawing skill yet keep to the "flaws" of the anime style i.e big eyes etc. It just shows that you enjoy what you do, are serious about it and like to make others happy with what you produce. It is being true to yourself and I admire you for that.

Genre snobbery does exist sadly but who's to judge a person's level of fandom? You don't have to keep up in depth about a subject to qualify as a "fan". If you like a style but don't indulge into it any further than that that still makes you a fan. Please don't let other's snobbery bring you down and keep doing what you are doing because you are bloody great it!
PepperMoonFlakes Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Same to me, I rarely watch anime shows right now..... The reason is, I've got no time to watch it..... Everyday I am busy... Busy with the family, commissions, television and others.... But I still draw anime.... Even though I'm a Beatles fan, hehehe.... Drawing anime was my forte..... XP
Unialada Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hmmm...well, the style you decide to use is anime-like, certanly. But that's doesn't mean you have to be an anime addict to use it.
I like some anime shows, but I like drawing/reading way more that watching anime or read mangas. Some of them are too much out of reality, so much that it feels silly to watch them.

Still, sometimes I search for animes, mangas and cartoons and other styles of art to make mine better. Also the fact that I can't close my mind to them just because I don't like some of them, I have seen more than once that there's always something good in everything, and that good part can make my artistic view way more bigger. For me, the art of an artist reflects what he has allowed to exist inside of him- the good and the bad. 
Chio-Elliker Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Well your artwork has inspired me since I was 14, so 7 years ago I think. I've always loved your pictures.
KeikoKup Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Student General Artist
I agree about competing, I don't bother competing anymore either because it takes the freedom out of creating art. If those feelings start coming back I just pray (as a Christian) and focus on doing my best in my own work. In that way creating art can always be fun! I also like creating anime art the most, even though I'm starting to branch out too since I started college c:
Captain-Kiryu Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Student General Artist
I like to draw anime style
but it is not the only thing, or even one of the biggest things in my life
sometimes when i'm trying to tell people what kind of things i draw i often blank 
i forget that i draw anime style
but i just do it because thats how i like to draw
though i have other artistic interests 
i often visit galleries in my area that are never anime related
studying all types of art can be enjoyable and useful

i think your anime style suits your complex illustration style of backgrounds
and it is borderline cartoonish
but that makes it beautiful
i've never shown someone your art who was able to look down upon it, even those who dislike anime-styled arts

sererena Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014
Oh, and another thing... you should do some Superjail fan art! XD
sererena Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014
I know how you feel.  My favourite shows are Futurama and Archer and I really only play older video games from my youth.  But I just can't stop drawing anime girls!
NatSilva Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014   Traditional Artist
*Takes a big long breathe in*.......

hello, I have been meaning to comment on your art works for a while now, since I started watching you that is. I read your journal and it really made me think about myself too. There are a lot of things Artists go through with their lives, and it affects us mentally, emotionally and spiritually everyone with their differences of course but also along the same path. I have been doing traditional art work for years too, I find it hard to express myself through art work more now these days than what I did back many years a go... I think I know why though. As for you, I can only understand the things you have been through, it's great you have opened up to your watchers and fans about this though it's nice to hear that behind every Artist there is in fact a human being behind all the colours, amazing work and great gift for making their vision come alive on paper.

It's no easy task, but you are right...without passion for what you do regardless of what it is...if there isn't any love or feeling in you, how can you represent it on paper? Everyone goes through fazes and tries different things. How are we supposed to figure out who we are as individuals if we don't try? :) I value your courage and on going journey to find your true Zen. It isn't easy and some times Artists need to stop some thing in order to re focus on their creativity and find their inner zen again. I also thought about quitting video games, it was only when I looked in to my Boyfriend's eyes and saw how much sadness he was giving out with just his eyes, he told me "I never met anyone like you, you are a girl also draw fan art. You are any guys dream for a girlfriend and it makes me sad hearing that you don't want to play video games any more and grow up..." :( It honestly made me so so sad just seeing his expression.. He is right though, many many years a go before we met I sent my art work to magazines and got them published. He saw them and thought it would be cool to be in contact with some one else who loved Nintendo and video games in general as much as he did. So we started writing to each other, then got emails and he made a fan based site about the magazine and also asked me to join and put my art work up, so I said yes! :)

Years after we shared so many wonderful adventures, shared so many stories within the area of both our hobbies and likes... we had and still have a lot in common. We finally got together about 2-3 years a go. But we have known each other for about 10 years before that, so we are pretty much best friends too :aww: I love him so very much, he means the world to me. Yes, I do want to grow up and find new and different hobbies and such that inspire me to draw.. BUT if it means that he will be sad and want to sell all of his amazing collections of rare things then I can't be selfish and let him down.

We spoke about this together, I don't want him to be sad and think his girlfriend is not fun anymore and wont kick his ass in Mario Kart lol. So i said to him, I have different likes now...I have grown out of playing video games for 2 days solid ;__; trying to finish Zelda Ocarina of that was a greta game though.....but I have found other interests but I still play games from time to time...I am addicted to my 3DS and recently playing that Street Pass Mii game, (Find Mii in the states I think)...which motivates me to go out more, walk and enjoy the fresh air. My Boyfriend also has found new interests so we go hand in hand. But again, it made me feel his pain of what he was going through when he got worried he would lose his fun crazy game loving geeky girlfriend. He hasn't, it's hard to explain how it all works out but in the end I decided to make some one happy by not giving up some thing I shouldn't have anyway!

Maybe that doesn't make sense, but it's a lovely way to show emotion to some how who appreciates what you do...but then you change because of life or because you want to do some thing fresh and new with your talent.

Anime will always be the foundation and stepping stones for my art too. Video games inspired me to start drawing, from the box art and manuals and then to game play I got my own style but with the base of Anime and Manga backing my own. So I owe a lot to both Video games and Anime, otherwise who knows what I would have become... Not that it matters but I strongly believe that what ever makes your eyes light up is what also makes your heart shine too...there for it is all a balance. If we lose that balance then it can be a little crazy and we stop...  but in order to start our gears again, we need to go back to the roots of what inspired us, looking back at old art work and people who motivated us and have an inpact in our lives.

My Boyfriend is that, he is my rock :hug: even though I am not as active in fan art these days, I will always have him to remind me of what is what like back then and start me up again. Mostly being lazy lol. I admit it, but with so much happening this year it's hard to fully focus on my art work and you are right, it's also emotional too. Because what you draw reflects, even if you try and deny never lies. ;)

Wow, it was great having a reason to write o you with my thoughts about your journal. It really opened up m mind to a few things that I'm dealing with at the moment... So I really must thank you for having the courage to open up like this to your fans and watchers, :highfive:

The drawing you and your "other half" made together does really make me feel there was tension in the piece and there for in your life...but you decided to work together and create a wonderful lively piece...I can see it in Pinky pie's expression that she wants to have fun and is inviting Joe, which isn't too it's a great combination.. unsure and an up beat feeling... best of both worlds. You nailed it pretty well! ^_-

Anyway, I should stop my rant and go to bed... :3

I wish you the best of luck on your on going adventures!! :D
SweetPopochan Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014
I draw Manga and Anime and realistic things. But at the moment for my stories i prefer the manga style. I don't watch or even read Mangas for years. I also read non-fiction and things like that. I don't think if you draw manga style you stop getting interested in other things or attitude towards life! Isn't that what makes sytles interesting? When you draw a story the things you are interested will be a big influence. So i think i'ts not a big deal. You shouldn't sepereate things. For me it sound like somebody in the past told you that manga is stupid and people who draw manga are close minded. This are prejudices.
Please draw what ever makes you happy.
And manga style also is exchangeable. It's not important which style you choose it's important to tell a story or express feelings regardless of which style you are using.
Kelkon Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
All I can really say is that I have the exact same opinion on anime.  I don't watch it or have anything to do with it, but I used to be a big-time weeaboo about it, maybe that's why I ended up disliking it.  Yet I still draw it.  The only thing related to anime is some of my music.  There's nothing wrong with that, honestly.  Art is art.  You draw what you feel is art, despite the outside connections.  Despite your knowledge of the characters you draw, also, I believe that if you like how something looks and you want to draw it, do it, especially if it makes you money.
LaughButts Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
xD It is crazy because you produce such CUTE, POSITIVE, BRIGHT, AND CHEERFUL/CHIBI artwork, and you are competing against yourself! I do not think people even notice that! They just see your wonderful ideas put on paper, whether you enjoy one genre over another! Keep up whatever TYPE of work you do, and we will like ti nonetheless! It is good you are reflecting about art's purpose and role/your thoughts on it too. IT takes good artists to know what their art truly means to them and others. 
NoelaniDesign Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I haven't been on for a while, but I saw this and felt compelled to comment.  I think you should feel free to do the art you enjoy, whether it's anime style or not, whether you watch anime and read manga or not. There's no shame in loving art, the fine arts or going to a museum. I think your fine arts background shows in the quality of your work. I have a fine arts background, but I enjoy watching anime and reading manga...and going to the museum and reading about art...and I've been mostly sewing rather then using my BA lol.  I don't feel you need to be all about anime to use the style to express yourself. .  If you feel the anime/manga style expresses what you wish to express the best, go for it! I certainly appreciate seeing the results! You just do what you need to keep the joy in your art. Ganbatte with everything in the New Year! =^.^=
Hoshigetsu Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Hobbyist
I have to agree sometimes anime art can be a struggle :) I have worked to switch my own style, seeing as I dabbled in a few other art styles, including DC/Marvel, cartoon, realism, fantasy, scifi and anime. I decided to work towards fantasy/scifi style, more because of the color palette. But my art still is reflecting my anime style, which is frustrating me, and a vivid color palette, where I like toned down and darker colors. I don't like expressing happiness in my art(though it seems strange to most people) because it seems like I always put a happy face on in real life. While I still enjoy watching anime and admire how beautiful and talented some of the anime artists are, I want to look onto a different horizon. :) 
V1902 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Hobbyist
I plein air paint these days but still draw lots of anime. At one time I wanted to succeed in a big way, not for fame or money but to make a positive difference in the world. My life has been filled with death, suicides, and tragedies. I've always felt anime was a positive and uplifting force, something that kept me sane from doing irrational things. Despite this feeling though my anime illustrations always come out sad and feelings that I'm only partaking in mindless escapism twist and distort the characters grotesquely. Once I became conscious of my complex it further infected my art to the point I felt it was no longer worth sharing.

What changed everything though was finding out I only have a couple years left to live. What difference can a self-taught artist really accomplish with only a couple years? When I look around DeviantArt sometimes I see people with no close friends, no support in their lives, trying to reach out to artists—other people—who never respond to them even if only with a nod of acknowledgement. No matter how great an illustration is it can't be a friend. It can't hug somebody. It can't give them shelter or feed an empty stomach. What purpose then can art have? What role does anime have in society? Certainly manga like Trigun Maximum and anime like Haibane Renmei have filled my head with meaningful concepts, but can the same things be said about illustrations in the same style? I don't know.

I don't know the answers and probably won't know when I die either. I find meaning though supporting people in their efforts. Helping them find a job doing what they love, mentoring those who can't afford education or lack the connections, or simply just listening to someone who needs someone to talk to, those are so important. I could lament not being able to create art that encourages people to be human beings, but I know I won't regret helping them directly.

Pursuing what you enjoy and what stimulates your mind is important. I still enjoy drawing in an anime style even though I only watch a new anime once a year. The mystery of its appeal and ultimate potential expands my mind in ways plein air paintings and realism cannot. Anime gets a lot of hate and might make you doubt your artistry, but y'know a picture is worth a thousand critics. Choose your own path and walk it with confidence. All of life is connected.
emperpep Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2013   General Artist
Oh, You are back!
Hope you restore all of your gallery soon.
snarkypicklekitty Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i am similar!!
i love anime and manga so i am different
but i try a semi-realism style for a year... which is why i don't have a bunch of stuff to put up on gallery here -n-

but i was so unhappy, compared myself to final-years at my school who were independently studying art!! i would cry, cry every night over how awful my work was.

anime style make me happy, even when i don't watch much, read much. -u- it's so funny because of anime style people discredit any critique i may have. 'oh you draw anime how do you know'
...but i do because i study so hard when i study, that i think i memorise the entire college textbook i own for art and anatomy!! sometimes i go back to semirealism... for sketch. sketching semirealism is fun but... anime style make ME happy so maybe i brighten someone elses day too!

i also compete with people during semirealism stage... i built such a beautiful and great style that was all mine but continue to compete, every day. anime let me not compete... to me, it is one thing in my life that is not super-serious... but semi-realism IS serious to me.
Neoniverse Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Student General Artist
well in my experience with my art, anime has been quite useful and helped me with lots of things, but I still want to change my style, I'm not confortable with it, I want to find it on other things, other styles, studies and techniques...

so yeah, I enjoy your art so much and I think it's fine to do your art the way you feel it, same way as I feel I still need to find myself =]
Cycroz021 Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I think I have to agree with what you said. I used to watch animes too in the past, and have that anime-style drawing. But ever since I began watching TV shows and musicals and movies (NOLAN MOVIES ESPECIALLY *u*), I sort of grew up from it and don't watch many anime or read any manga (the anime I watched this year were Fate/Zero and Shingeki no Kyojin, and nothing else). Yet my drawing style is still influenced by anime, and I like it that way since it's the only style I'm most comfortable with and also the style that I can express myself (and what I want to share to others) better.
I think artists like you are really inspirational; combining fine arts and anime as one. It's the reason why I adore your works, since not only it's all colorful, but it really shows a lot of feelings that you put in your artworks.
Don't stop creating great stuff! :D
AmabilisDG Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2013
. . .you might notice that I always use shape and form of anime in most of my artworks, But my inner side always tells me that I don't have that much interest in it. . .

It's OK. Even anime-style lover like me still have interests other than anime-related one, for example, I read articles from various fields like Engineering, Economics, Editorial, Buddhism etc. I also listen to many kinds of music from pop, rock, classical to anisong or BGM.

What I want to say is being anime-style lover does not mean to live with anime and manga-doujinshi all the time. So it's not strange if you really like to draw anime style but you never attend anime convention or read manga-doujinshi.

Just be happy and confident with the way you choose. If you get confused, try asking someone who become your FC since your debut in DA; they might give you surprising advices or impressive memories.

I don't know, maybe my main purpose about using anime is just for fine art, while many skilled people might think about using it for other purpose . . . this might be why some people who tend to dislike anime so much still have minor interest in some of my anime art.

I have to confess that I did not graduate from Art Faculty or doing any art related profession, but I think your "Fine Art" skills and aesthetic makes you artworks stand out from any other anime style artists I have seen so far.

Your coloring style and character interactions (character-character or character-surroundings) are so unique that I can tell which of artworks is yours when I browse through DA.

Keep your progress, I'm watching YOU!

Ps: If you can, I would like to ask you to write a journal about "Practice Progress, Talent and Art Block"
  • How did you progress from very beginning up till now?
  • Many people come with the word "talent" when they talk about artists. What do you think about "talent"? Do you think you have artistic talent?
  • What did you do when you were in state of Art Block?

GlitchBlazie Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2013  Student General Artist
This has taught me a valuable lesson.
HellHum Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013  Student Digital Artist
อ่านมาสรุบได้ว่า พี่วาดการ์ตูนแล้วรู้สึกสนุก และไม่อยากตามการ์ตูน ไม่อยากตามกระแส
ดีแล้วพี่ ชอบอะไรก็วาดเลยเหอะ วาดเพราะเราชอบ ไม่ใช่วาดเพราะอยากถูกชอบ
แต่ผู้ใหญ่รุ่นหลังก็ดูการ์ตูนกันเยอะขึ้น อีกสัก 10 - 20ปีเดี๋ยวก็ได้ความยอมรับเองละพี่
ดูอย่างการ์ตูนของ Disney ยังำด้การยอมรับเป็น animation art เลย

เรื่องผลงานพี่อ่ะ ตูดชอบนะ ถึงจะมาอะไรหลายๆอย่างที่พัฒนาได้ แบบพวกเเสงเงากับการคุมโทนไรพวกนี้

เรื่องแข่งขัน ตอนนี้ตูดมาเรียนโทต่อที่เมกา รู้สึกคนที่นี้เค้าจะเครียดและจริงจังแข่งขันทำงานมากกว่าที่ไทยเราเป็นอย่างมาก
คือถ้ามันแข่งขันแบบ friendly competition แบบนินะ สนุก แบบถ้าเธาล้มชั้นก็จะช่วยแล้วแข่งกันต่อ
แต่ที่นี้ ถ้าเราหกล้ม มันหัวเราะ และวิ่งจากไป กะเอาชนะอย่างเดียว.....อยู่แล้วเหนื่อยใจ OTL  
Phaedris Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013

First of all, I want to thank you for posting such an in-depth, thoughtful journal.  I think your ability to communicate in English is better than mine, and that’s the only language I know well! :)

So no, your post is not only not stupid, but  it is very intelligent.


If I was talking to you, I would ask you, “What is the goal?”  You write of many interests: classical artwork, philosophy and music; your interest to communicate your artistic vision using the genre of anime; your altruistic interests, your competitive nature.  Most of all, perhaps, your interest to be true to yourself.


If you feel that you’re not being true to yourself with your artwork, I suggest devoting a certain amount of time to artwork that is ONLY for you.  That way you can continue to be successful commercially and financially.  But this will give you an outlet to express the full spectrum of your artistic skills.


Whatever happens, I think you’re an amazingly talented person and I am rooting for you as you continue to evolve as an artist and a person! :heart: :huggle:

PortalBerry Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I've been looking at your work since 2008. Your style mey be anime-ish, but I always loved it more because of the color explosion! You know how to use color, and many techniques! It's marvelous.  All the art you've made and these words you've expressed say a lot and they mean as much to others. I've been feeling lost for a while now; it's been difficult to get my ass back to drawing something that meant something to me. Your words seem to make me want to push forward. 
AmayaKazumi Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I always love your artwork. No matter what. You are so talented.
I know that I can go long periods of time in between my drawings because I am unable to force myself to draw unless my heart is in it. Then when my heart tells me to draw, I don't know for sure until the drawing is done what I have done. Whether it is anime in design, fantasy like or an animal. I do know one thing when I do draw it usually turns out good but if I force myself draw I usually don't like the drawing.
As far as I am concerned if something is hard I use that as a goal to aim for. Always aim to improve yourself. Never stop no matter what.
Lastly only do what your heart tells you to do. Only you can decide what makes you truly happy. If it is to have an anime feel to your drawings, then draw that way. But ultimately you are the only one that can decide what makes you happy. If you are unsure of that then there is absolutely no problem stepping back for a little while till you do know.
Donokorai Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013
Do what your heart said :) ^^'
Taures-15 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
I am surprised by the way you like anime because it meshes pretty well with mine.. I love anime art, the physical drawings, and I look at animecons and cosplay but am not really into doing those things myself but I can see that many peeps enjoy it immensly and put much thought and effort into those activities.  Is all good.  I really like your anime work and consider it more of fine anime art in that you do very complete detailing of your characters and they are usually telling or saying something with the art and most of them are truly beautiful to look at and like fine museum art, you can look at them for a while and see many things in the works that aren't apparent at first glance.  So, hope you decide to keep expressing yourself in this way as I think many of us really enjoy your works.... Thanks and have happy holidays.. :hug: :D
To-Ka-Ro Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Professional General Artist
For me at least, being a person who loves anime/manga, I do have to step back from it at some point and do things like go to museums, etc. I think for me it means also experimenting with other styles and mediums. There's so much that is interesting that it would be hard for me to solely stick to anime/manga; there's so many art genres that existed before that influenced it. I think there's also experimentation that can happen within the anime/manga genre, which is why I enjoy semi-realistic anime.
Just my opinions/thoughts though :)
Lluks4 Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
The most important thing is to keep going.  If you stop, then just get back up and keep going.  Keep going.
The second most important thing is to do what speaks to you.  It's the only way to be genuine.
The third most important thing, for me, is to always seek to improve.  The only perfection is infinite good, and infinity is self-exceeding, so the only way to be perfect is to strive always to improve.

Whether competition or otherwise is what drives you isn't the important part.  If you keep going, the rest will fall into place.  Like driving through the mist, you don't need to see your destination, you just need to see the bit of road right in front of you and keep going.
emperpep Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013   General Artist
Nice advice, Thank you :)
Fraisierdepines3 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2013  Student General Artist
Art is about expression and if you don't seem to be able to appreciate other anime artists that doesn't mean you should stop doing the great drawings you usually do
In the end,  the way you draw is up to your own taste and as long as it makes your ideas reachable then it should be ok
That never means you can't have realistic drawings,portraits,etc... but as I see it anime/manga-style suits best your art ^_^ and your fun loving personality
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